Last week I talked about safety and healing. That is one part of why I think I (and the other widow/ers) complain of increased pain and other physical symptoms. The other part is the way our brains are processing our grief. Think of it like circuitry. We have a certain number of circuits for processing…
12-14 Safety, Healing, and Video Game Mechanics
I’ve talked about the widowhood effect before. This is a phenomena found in widow/ers over the age of 65 (because there aren’t enough of us under 65 to study in a statistically significant manner) in which folks who have lost their partners report greater amounts of pain, are less responsive to pain medication, get sick…
12-5 Health Insurance: An American Tale
It is becoming common knowledge around the world that United States’ health insurance and medical payment system is completely fucked. Here is my story about how lucky I am, and also how messed up this is. Health Insurance plans are required to continue coverage until the end of the month in which you had a…
10-16 More Grief (aka Writing Angsty Shit on the Internet like I’m 18 again)
Either Jason wasn’t real, or his death isn’t real. Even at seventeen and a half months, I can’t reconcile both of these things. There is no way I had this and that I don’t have it now. The lifetime that I shared with him can’t be the same lifetime I am living now. Maybe it’s…
10-5 All is Not Doom and Gloom
I got a new job. It is a career type job. Like, an actual job with a salary and 40 hours a week and benefits and paid parking. I have business cards to prove it. (Please don’t call or email that contact information. I may have business cards, but I can’t seem to get into…
9-28 Victim’s Impact Statement – Haynes
Ten months ago, I stood before the court a read a statement. Then, my goal was to use words to reach across the chasm and explain how the actions of Rahim Meekins have impacted me. I hoped to reach the core of human compassion in him and maybe give him a starting point to become…