Sometime last week, I scrawled: And if we were given the choice to love Or live forever We would dig our own graves. These were the words that were echoing in my head the way people get songs stuck on repeat. They are written diagonally across the page, under the grocery list I sent my…
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2-12 The Bargaining Phase
According to the psychology textbooks, there are these stages of grief that you are supposed to go through. And they are supposed to go in some kind of an order and then you get to the other side and they are all done and you are maybe done with grief. That’s not how it works….
1-7 Tattoo
I have joked that I should get “Widow” tattooed across my forehead because it would make some conversations easier. Like the time at work that my employee had to ask me who Jason was, or that other time at work that the designer on the show did a double take when I said he was…
4-2 If You are New Here; or Welcome to My Shitshow
I started a new job a few months ago, which has led to a lot of new Facebook friends and new people reading my social media. If you are new here, this is a synopsis. If you have been following the shitshow all along, there shouldn’t be much to surprise you. On April 30th of…
2-5 The Gift of Art
I’ve been quiet about a lot of things recently. It’s been a rather bonkers few months. But here is something that has been on my mind. Jason gave me the gift of art. He didn’t know it. Or he didn’t fully understand what he was doing, but this is what it comes down to. Jason…
12-20 Why I hurt: Part 2
Last week I talked about safety and healing. That is one part of why I think I (and the other widow/ers) complain of increased pain and other physical symptoms. The other part is the way our brains are processing our grief. Think of it like circuitry. We have a certain number of circuits for processing…