On any given day, before April 30th, I used maybe 30-50% of my emotional processing capacity. The bad drivers, friends’ struggles, mouthy students, and difficult homework only ever took up a fraction of what I was capable of. I could get through any given day by swearing a little and on bad days, swearing a…
Tag: emotions
1-17 Lonely Once and Lonely Twice
A friend of mine has started the conversation about kids with her (slightly younger) boyfriend. His response was that he wants to see some of his peers go through the experience of having kids before he does. I understand this. He wants someone to be an example – both of the good and the bad. …
1-17 Capacity
The whole was greater than the sum of its parts. I have less capacity without Jason. I don’t mean this in a “I’m less of a person” way or in a “I can’t do it without him” way. I mean that together, we were a team. We enhanced each other’s capacity through a million little…
1-9 Crying and Weird Metaphors
I am, at any given moment, about half an hour from tears. I can get through my day to day without crying, so long as I am engaged in something. I can show up to work and not cry on people. I can buy groceries, greet AirBnB guests, attend class, and function in public without…
1-9 The Hydra of Bureaucracy
I feel like I’m fighting a Hydra made of bureaucracy and bullshit. Each time I cut off a head and think I’m done with a problem, five new ones sprout from the stump and start hissing at me. The normal life problems of being a human in the US, I can kind of handle. But…
12-13 Bravery
I don’t think getting out of bed and putting my pants on makes me brave or an inspiration. If those are the things that make me “inspiring,” we need to talk about not using tragedy as your pornography. That’s a different post. There are people we don’t have a choice about loving. As children, we…