I’ve talked about the widowhood effect before. This is a phenomena found in widow/ers over the age of 65 (because there aren’t enough of us under 65 to study in a statistically significant manner) in which folks who have lost their partners report greater amounts of pain, are less responsive to pain medication, get sick…
Tag: Jason
10-16 More Grief (aka Writing Angsty Shit on the Internet like I’m 18 again)
Either Jason wasn’t real, or his death isn’t real. Even at seventeen and a half months, I can’t reconcile both of these things. There is no way I had this and that I don’t have it now. The lifetime that I shared with him can’t be the same lifetime I am living now. Maybe it’s…
9-28 Victim’s Impact Statement – Haynes
Ten months ago, I stood before the court a read a statement. Then, my goal was to use words to reach across the chasm and explain how the actions of Rahim Meekins have impacted me. I hoped to reach the core of human compassion in him and maybe give him a starting point to become…
9-27 Sentencing
My friends, it is done. The sentencing of Chelsea Haynes on Wednesday closed the last of the legal cases around Jason’s death. I’m pretty sure I have feelings. I’m not sure where they are. I think I had so many feelings I’ve walked out the other side of feelings into cheerful non-feeling-ness. I’m going to…
9-20 Legal Summary: Part 3, Entirely Feelings
I was ready for a fight. It is just shy of a year since her first court hearing. It has been eleven and a half months since I first saw the person who killed Jason. Eleven and a half months of knowing that she doesn’t care that she killed him. There is weight to each…
9-19 Legal Summary: Part 2, Less Facts More Feelings
I want to acknowledge that I consented to her plea deal. I knew what I was doing when I made that choice, and I do think this is the easiest choice for me and for Jason’s immediate family. I think that the plea deal is overall a good thing. But that doesn’t mean I have…